Anicca - 諸行無常

Someone told me yesterday that I believe too much in transience of human life and that, good or bad, I don't realize that something important to my life is slipping through my fingers until it's gone. And, when I do realize it's gone, I would act like I don't care and move on. I try to pretend that I stick at nothing because I'm scared and overly protective. I try not to possess anything on my palm that I want to hang onto... for fearing that things you hang onto will eventually be gone anyways. I don't expect much from others to make me happy because I lack trust in others. Worse, I don't expect much from myself because I lack trust in myself. I try too hard to suppress my feelings and hide them from others. I will be a much stronger person if I have a faith and make an effort to keep important things in my hand. Whether this is true or not, I was told all these things by a person who has known me since I was little. Maybe I should listen. I could try a different approach to how I view the world.

"Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."
-Albert Einstein


Separate from that, when I want to sleep happily, I sometimes watch “Castle in the Sky: Laputa,” my favorite Gibli movie of all time. This movie is about, first and foremost, love, hope and dream. It is also about greed, power, money, war and a few other elements in human nature. I keep watching this movie again and again and again because I want to be this boy Pazu and I want to live his life. If you have watched this movie, you know what I’m talking about. There are so many things you can learn from this movie. Watch it if you haven’t.

I have seen this movie so many times that I can write a long-ass commentary but I’m not going to do that since uhm well it doesn’t matter.

Anyways, I want to be Pazu, one of the most adventurous, loving and caring, courageous, gentle but wild, inspiring, capable, optimistic, lucky (a girl falling into his lap doesn’t happen often), responsible, daring, proud heroes I have ever seen. This boy is my hero and he is everything I want to be.

Wedding!

Well, it's not for me, it's for my friends. One of my Japanese best friends is getting married mid-next month. I'm not asked to be his best man but I was asked to put some things together for the reception ceremony.

It's going to be semi-Japanese and semi-western style ceremony. It's going to be a lot of fun... for the most part. I know that married friends and their relatives are going to ask me "So it'll have to be your turn. When are you going to get married?" and to each of them I'll have to say "I'll have to look for a bride-to-be first and I haven't even had single date for a long time" when I just want to tell them it's none of their damn business... aah damn these Japanese people lol Well, not that I care what they say. Some day some angel will fall into my lap and I'll be married in a second.

The groom asked me to wear a speedo swimsuit and do some silly gig that's popular in Japan to hype up the party but I declined... I will never find a bride if I did that. It's like this...


Anyways, I'm very excited about my friends' wedding. It's always good to see a happy couple ^_^

Happy Valentine's Day!

Thank you everyone who sent me kind and warm messages today.

It's not the same as back in the days in school where everyone has got butterflies in their stomach (if you're from Japan you'd know exactly what I mean) but hey it's still valentine's day and I had a good day and the night has been great! The dinner was fantastic... hmmmmm...

Piece out!

Everything is just fine.

What a perfect weather. So warm, yet cool, not humid but not too dry. I can wear a t-shirt, shorts and sandals. Even the simplest thing like walking down the street in my own neighborhood with somebody makes me feel so happy. A weekend like this makes me feel that everything is just fine.

Cobra Heart

I just wanna kill a cobra and rip the heart out. And eat it while it's still beating.